I've signed up for the 12wbt!!!

So, as you can see from the lack of activity here since my first post at the beginning of the year I haven't done too well thus far. I did try and write another entry that was quite funny if I do say so myself that was about the battle between my stomach and my willpower but it didn't even make it past the editing stage. So why have I returned now??

I HAVE SIGNED UP FOR THE MICHELLE BRIDGES 12WBT!!! 

I have wanted to do this for a couple of years now and a little voice has told me "You'll be fine! You don't need it and you can do this yourself!" However, I am struggling. I am a fatty, I have bad habits and I need some help to make the changes I need to make so that I can be the wife/mum & person that I want to be.

To be perfectly honest I am petrified to publish this post. The reason why is because I am not only going to publish it but I am also going to the people that I know, love and respect I am doing it and send them here to read about it all. Why does this scare me?? Because it becomes real then. I know I will become accountable to the people I care about for the outcome of this daunting task of making a change. I know that they can read this and that I will have their support along the way but I also don't want to let them or myself down. If I fail, they will know. That's they scary bit. But if it's my fear of people knowing whether I fail or succeed that will help me stay focused then I am willing to put it out there and let you all know that I AM going to do this and I WANT to change. Hopefully it won't all be this emotional (yes I am sitting here crying as I write)!!

THIS IS MY HAND SHAKE - for all the 12wbters (past and present) out there you know what I mean!